*Note: In honor of Holy Week, I will be sending a daily devotional each day this week, with the final one coming on Saturday. Each devotional will focus on a different individual or group who features prominently in the story of Jesus's crucifixion. I hope these daily devotionals will help you as you fix your eyes on the cross and eagerly anticipate the joy of Easter Sunday.*
“All
of them deserted him and fled.”
-
Mark 14:50
What
a week it had been for the Twelve. From a victorious processional into
Jerusalem on Sunday to a controversial purging of the temple on Monday to an
enigmatic, sacred supper earlier that Thursday night, the disciples were by
Jesus’s side for seemingly every moment of that week in the Holy City. They
were his right-hand men, his loyal followers, his closest friends. Wherever
Jesus was going next, they were sure to be close behind.
And
then, suddenly, they weren’t.
When
Jesus had emerged from a moment of private prayer in the garden, they had yawned
and sheepishly accepted his scolding—instructed to pray themselves, they had
instead drifted off to sleep, weary from the eventful week and the late night.
But their tired eyes had quickly grown wide with fear when they saw who was
approaching: their companion Judas Iscariot, leading a small regiment of temple
guards. Simon Peter had drawn a sword in defense, striking one of the guards,
but was once again scolded by his master. There would be no battle tonight,
only a long walk to the high priest, a false trial, and a hasty conviction—and
Jesus would have to endure it all alone. At the moment of greatest testing,
with their Lord being led away to an uncertain fate, the disciples deserted him
and fled.
I’d
like to think I’d have done better. I’d like to think I’d have shown the
bravery of the women who came to the foot of the cross, that I’d have stood by
Jesus to the end. I’d like to think that my love for the Lord would have overridden
my fear of his accusers, that I’d have valued my relationship with him more
than my own skin. I’d like to think I’m a better disciple than the ones who
fled that night.
But
I can’t know for sure. I’ve had too many moments of spiritual weakness, made
too many moral compromises, and turned my back on God too many times to be
sure. I’ve behaved like a sinner too many times to assume that, if I’d been in
the garden that night, I’d have acted like a saint. I hope I would have stood
by Jesus—but I just don’t know.
What
I do know is this: while we were still
sinners—while we were fleeing his punishment in terror, while we were
cowering in the upper room, while we were denying we even knew him—Christ died
for us. The disciples deserted Jesus and fled, and we do the same today more
often than we care to admit. But he never leaves us.
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